A Piece of My Story

I have been transformed into this BOLD, REAL, & UNASHAMED creature, which is far Far FAR from where I use to be. Here's how.......

Until the age of 26, I followed the typical standards of what is expected of a human being. I graduated high school, earned a college degree, even continued my education and earned my doctorate in December of 2009. You would think that after achieving these accomplishments I would feel proud, fulfilled, and more determined to continue building my future. Well, I wasn’t. I was lost, confused, uncomfortable in my own skin, and feeling more like a failure. I know this must sound weird, but if I really share with you the ugly truth, I would have to reveal to you the insecurity and lack of confidence I often displayed. I struggled earning my degree. I struggled passing my national boards. I struggled with feeling inferior to my peers. And I struggled with not really knowing who I was and what I was gifted at. Due to these “struggles”, it led me down a dark path filled with many moments of depressive thoughts. I figured that if I could land a great job in a reputable clinic, it would miraculously fix all my issues. Well, that job I was looking for finally happened. Actually it happened twice over the following two years and it didn’t fix anything. It made my problems seem bigger and much more complicated. I literally thought I was going to lose my mind because what I was doing didn’t reflect who I was at all. Yes, I was working in my field, but I kept feeling like I didn’t belong, like there was something more out there for me but I couldn’t figure out what that was. I was miserable, therefore, I continued having those depressive moments that left me crying to God asking for a sign. Begging to fix something that I didn’t even know was broken within me.

Thinking back on those days, it still makes my eyes tear up. That’s why when people speak so passively about depression, it ruffles my feathers because there are no quick fixes for that. It is not a simple phone call, a single prayer, or genuine love from someone, that can combat those feelings. Only God, and God alone, can turn that situation around. And to my surprise in July of 2012, he did just that! A blessing in disguise came out of nowhere and I was fired from my job. Instead of me feeling sad or disappointed, I was thrilled and I felt like a huge weight had been lifted off my chest. I smiled and ran to my car and called my mom and the first thing I yelled when I heard her voice was “I am free mommy!” But then once reality set in and I realized that I was suddenly unemployed, I cried because I didn’t want to experience the job-searching phase again.

So, I immediately applied for unemployment, and I decided  that I was going to take 3 weeks to get myself together. It was during that time that I decided that I didn’t want to return to chiropractic and that I needed a break from feeling “fake”. Yes, I mean fake because that’s the best way I can describe how those jobs made me feel. So, I took a job at Fossil. This was great because, not only was I working with a great company that I loved, but also it gave me time to figure things out. So, after a year, I realized that I wanted my own company because the vision that I had in my head didn’t exist in my world of chiropractic. Therefore, I knew I had to create it.  I remember my vision so clearly at that time. I wanted my office to be filled with pregnant woman and kids. I wanted it to have a certain atmosphere, a particular smell, and a nurturing ambiance. But, when I began my journey to opening my business, Charms of Care, that vision that I had had disappeared. I allowed fear and advice from colleagues to transform that image. So the day my doors open, my business was a reflection of another company, not mine.

I honestly thought that I could turn it into something great if I worked hard enough, but I fooled myself completely. It got so bad that, not only was I failing, I no longer wanted to be at my office. It made me feel like I had someone else’s clothes on and I desperately needed to get out of them quickly. So, I began the transition to achieving that by putting back on my own clothes. I needed to feel like I was at home again. My vision is my home. My business is me and I am it and there is no separation of the two. Every phase of my business and every phase of my life needed to reflect Charminae, so that’s what happened. 

The journey of discovering God’s purpose for my life has taught me that a person will always find what he/she seeks if they pay close attention to the signs the world gives them. Now, I’m not a person who believes in accidents or coincidences, but when you observe these things, they lead you down a path that is created just for you. My path has taught me to be me unapologetically, express love and feel love, be silent & still when my mind is full, speak when my words need to be spoken, give often; even when it’s not much, ask questions, be THANKFUL in every situation, share my story; the good & the bad, but most of all, use my gifts to SERVE the world and never hide them.

Being connected to who I am at my core is what fuels my being. Helping others to stay connected to who they are is what keeps my fire burning. Yes we are all different. We are big, small, tall, short, black, white, and everything in between. Ironically, what we need in order to truly thrive is what makes us the same... that is keeping our lives congruent to our souls, which is who we REALLY are within. That is the fuel that guides each of us to our DESTINY and it’s up to us to get there. Remember, you attract what you want; you just have to be BOLD enough to dream it. Then, BELIEVE in that dream and go out and MAKE it YOUR REALITY! 

Thanks for reading my beaus and beauties! I honestly hope that my story helps you to continue to build a life that is designed by you. If you are not on that path just yet, I pray that your journey to yourself will began soon!!! 

I LOVE you soooooo much!!! Be that shining star that we ALL are.

Original Post Date: 5/28/15

XoXo

Hey YOU!

I'm a Little Lady with a HUGE Personality with a BADASS DOPE-Fly FREE Spirit that is here to SERVE you LOVE, POSITIVITY & LIGHT! I love who the hell I am and I love how I do things and I am VERY UNAPOLOGETIC about my shit. Tongue Out If you are here let's ELEVATE higher TOGETHER and bridge the CONNECTION to ourselves by OUR TRUTH. It's time to LIVE! It's time to GROW and it's time that we RAISE our MIDDLE FINGERS to things, people and ideas that no longer serve us. You ready??? Rock wit me now.

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I have been transformed into this BOLD, REAL, & UNASHAMED creature, which is far Far FAR from where I use to be. Here's how.......

Until the age of 26, I followed the typical standards of what is expected of a human being. I graduated high school, earned a college degree, even continued my education and earned my doctorate in December of 2009. You would think that after achieving these accomplishments I would feel proud, fulfilled, and more determined to continue building my future. Well, I wasn’t. I was lost, confused, uncomfortable in my own skin, and feeling more like a failure. I know this must sound weird, but if I really share with you the ugly truth, I would have to reveal to you the insecurity and lack of confidence I often displayed. I struggled earning my degree. I struggled passing my national boards. I struggled with feeling inferior to my peers. And I struggled with not really knowing who I was and what I was gifted at. Due to these “struggles”, it led me down a dark path filled with many moments of depressive thoughts. I figured that if I could land a great job in a reputable clinic, it would miraculously fix all my issues. Well, that job I was looking for finally happened. Actually it happened twice over the following two years and it didn’t fix anything. It made my problems seem bigger and much more complicated. I literally thought I was going to lose my mind because what I was doing didn’t reflect who I was at all. Yes, I was working in my field, but I kept feeling like I didn’t belong, like there was something more out there for me but I couldn’t figure out what that was. I was miserable, therefore, I continued having those depressive moments that left me crying to God asking for a sign. Begging to fix something that I didn’t even know was broken within me.

Thinking back on those days, it still makes my eyes tear up. That’s why when people speak so passively about depression, it ruffles my feathers because there are no quick fixes for that. It is not a simple phone call, a single prayer, or genuine love from someone, that can combat those feelings. Only God, and God alone, can turn that situation around. And to my surprise in July of 2012, he did just that! A blessing in disguise came out of nowhere and I was fired from my job. Instead of me feeling sad or disappointed, I was thrilled and I felt like a huge weight had been lifted off my chest. I smiled and ran to my car and called my mom and the first thing I yelled when I heard her voice was “I am free mommy!” But then once reality set in and I realized that I was suddenly unemployed, I cried because I didn’t want to experience the job-searching phase again.

So, I immediately applied for unemployment, and I decided  that I was going to take 3 weeks to get myself together. It was during that time that I decided that I didn’t want to return to chiropractic and that I needed a break from feeling “fake”. Yes, I mean fake because that’s the best way I can describe how those jobs made me feel. So, I took a job at Fossil. This was great because, not only was I working with a great company that I loved, but also it gave me time to figure things out. So, after a year, I realized that I wanted my own company because the vision that I had in my head didn’t exist in my world of chiropractic. Therefore, I knew I had to create it.  I remember my vision so clearly at that time. I wanted my office to be filled with pregnant woman and kids. I wanted it to have a certain atmosphere, a particular smell, and a nurturing ambiance. But, when I began my journey to opening my business, Charms of Care, that vision that I had had disappeared. I allowed fear and advice from colleagues to transform that image. So the day my doors open, my business was a reflection of another company, not mine.

I honestly thought that I could turn it into something great if I worked hard enough, but I fooled myself completely. It got so bad that, not only was I failing, I no longer wanted to be at my office. It made me feel like I had someone else’s clothes on and I desperately needed to get out of them quickly. So, I began the transition to achieving that by putting back on my own clothes. I needed to feel like I was at home again. My vision is my home. My business is me and I am it and there is no separation of the two. Every phase of my business and every phase of my life needed to reflect Charminae, so that’s what happened. 

The journey of discovering God’s purpose for my life has taught me that a person will always find what he/she seeks if they pay close attention to the signs the world gives them. Now, I’m not a person who believes in accidents or coincidences, but when you observe these things, they lead you down a path that is created just for you. My path has taught me to be me unapologetically, express love and feel love, be silent & still when my mind is full, speak when my words need to be spoken, give often; even when it’s not much, ask questions, be THANKFUL in every situation, share my story; the good & the bad, but most of all, use my gifts to SERVE the world and never hide them.

Being connected to who I am at my core is what fuels my being. Helping others to stay connected to who they are is what keeps my fire burning. Yes we are all different. We are big, small, tall, short, black, white, and everything in between. Ironically, what we need in order to truly thrive is what makes us the same... that is keeping our lives congruent to our souls, which is who we REALLY are within. That is the fuel that guides each of us to our DESTINY and it’s up to us to get there. Remember, you attract what you want; you just have to be BOLD enough to dream it. Then, BELIEVE in that dream and go out and MAKE it YOUR REALITY! 

Thanks for reading my beaus and beauties! I honestly hope that my story helps you to continue to build a life that is designed by you. If you are not on that path just yet, I pray that your journey to yourself will began soon!!! 

I LOVE you soooooo much!!! Be that shining star that we ALL are.

Original Post Date: 5/28/15

XoXo

Hey YOU!

I'm a Little Lady with a HUGE Personality with a BADASS DOPE-Fly FREE Spirit that is here to SERVE you LOVE, POSITIVITY & LIGHT! I love who the hell I am and I love how I do things and I am VERY UNAPOLOGETIC about my shit. Tongue Out If you are here let's ELEVATE higher TOGETHER and bridge the CONNECTION to ourselves by OUR TRUTH. It's time to LIVE! It's time to GROW and it's time that we RAISE our MIDDLE FINGERS to things, people and ideas that no longer serve us. You ready??? Rock wit me now.

LET'S CONNECT!


   

SUBSCRIBE TO THE SPOT

Weekly Dose of LOVE, POSITIVITY & LIGHT

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Charminae Nicole


MY WOMEN'S WELLNESS | PERINATAL CHIROPRACTIC BIZ

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